Curious case of mindology 2

Now I need to decide where I want work in my rest of the life, in front of computer or in front of microscope. I thought I would work on spiking neural model, where neural signals need to record from the single neuron, the technique known as whole cell patch clamp. I agree that it is really a bold dream from  my position, one whole cell patch clamp electrophysiologist already informed me they prefer an experienced hand in this type of job. On the counter argument I said her that let me be experienced though she had not accepted that. I understand it is logical, why she will think of an engineering background student for this job, where she can get any biology student easily. However this logic never stopped me in dreaming. But now there is another turning appeared in my way.

My resume is attracting theoretical neuroscientist, who read neuroscience avidly and sit in front of the computer and nail down their thinking into the theoretical model of various possible mechanism of brain. Its really a respectable thing doubtlessly. This kind of research sounds like philosophy. Thought experiment after thought experiments will run until you can conclude a possible mechanism.   It is a mathematical philosophical approach in the most unexplored field of knowledge, the neuroscience. I never thought this group might think me eligible for their work. Still here is uncertainty, professors might like my resume but admission committee of those school will think me eligible or not, I do not know. Infect I am worried about additional matters, like GRE, language proficiency etc.

In my understanding, experimental and theoretical, both kind of approach is important now. Theoretical neuroscientist are fighting to understand the brain using the brains. Whereas experimental neuroscientist are trying to reveal the unknown basics of neurons and its connectivity. I am deciding to have a try in both direction, lets see what happen. My mind says, I might learn the experimental thing any time in my life, but training in mathematical approach is really important in this phase of my career. Here is one alarming thing happened. Last two days, like my last two years I couldn't sleep, my brain did not allowed me to stop thinking. Yeah, i know i am a philosopher by born.

There is another problem arises now. I got a mail from an experimental neuroscientist today, who clearly expressed his depression about the funding crisis occurred in United States. I think I need to wait to look for the position until the US government shutdown is over.

The ultimate truth, all these are happening because of my daring dreams. Dreamers dream, dreamer try, but they don't know what is in future.

Silver Lining

Sometimes silver lining dances in between lots of dark lining. I know silver linings are now visible to my eye. I just don't know if it is possible to touch the silver lining defending the dark linings.